KarmaKitty's Litterbox <3

I hear you calling,
My welcome emptiness,
An emptiness that consumes,
I crave you like the earth craves sun,
Every dull ache,
Every dizzy whirl,
Every tear,
Brings me closer to the goal.

I close my eyes to the temptations,
Not realizing I close my eyes to the world,
Upon opening I see a stranger,
So melancholy, so insecure, so twistedly strong,
I hide beneath thick cloaks of fabric,
Keeping my frame hidden beneath,
I close my eyes for a long pause,
Because the confusion is too much,

I wonder, when will my eyes close forever?